When we reveal our suffering before God, He will certainly give us a very personal answer. And it will not always be the word that we hear with our physical hearing. God will speak to our heart and move it in a proper way only to Him. Covering our wounds with His mercy will have something of a painful decontamination, but also a mild flooding of the wound with oil.
Jesus, having heard the prayer of a man overwhelmed with suffering, points to his value: You are not living for yourself but for souls, and other souls will profit from your sufferings. Your prolonged suffering will give them the light and strength to accept My will (Diary, 67). He explains that there is no suffering in our lives that could not be used – even if it is small and seemingly insignificant: My daughter, meditate frequently on the sufferings which I have undergone for your sake, and then nothing of what you suffer for Me will seem great to you. You please Me most when you meditate on My Sorrowful Passion. Join your little sufferings to My Sorrowful Passion, so that they may have infinite value before My Majesty (Diary, 1512).
Sister Faustina had the grace that sometimes God would let her know who receives a grace through her suffering. When one day she saw a chalice filled with hosts, she heard a voice: These hosts have been received by souls converted through your prayer and suffering (Diary,709). We also trust that people who we do not know benefit from our suffering. These are the events that will be revealed to us in Heaven. Then we will find out how many people have been converted because we have been faithful in a relationship in spite of the alcoholism of our spouse. We will find out how our suffering paved the way to the sacrament of reconciliation for many people. And maybe then we will open our eyes and understand the words written by the Saint in “Diary,” that Angels, if they could envy, would envy us two things: the first – this is receiving Holy Communion, and the other – it is suffering (Diary, 1804).
Sr. Anna Maria Trzcińska ZMBM